I want to write something. About what I am going through at this moment. But every time I start writing … it stops after 4 lines. I start again and stop again. I start again and stop again. Apparently what I want to write is hard to put in words. The last 3 weeks I started writing this blog ten times and now I am determined to finish it no matter how long it will take me.
My life has been changing a lot in the last 2 years. I have learned more about myself and how I want to live my life. Sometimes I couldn’t even keep up with the changes, so I can imagine that the people around me must have been struggling with this even more. For my most recent big change I needed a lot of courage and perseverance. After 4 years I ended the relationship between me and this great and loving man who helped me to get out of my comfort zone even more by helping me move from my hometown.
It is now 5 weeks later. The house we lived in is being filled with love and energy from a new couple. Almost everything I own is put away in a storage box. Timo, our cat, has found amazing new owners who cuddle him a lot. And me and my backpack are staying with a fantastic friend who is putting up with me for the next 2 weeks.
I now have the time and space – and big need and longing- to go on a big adventure with myself. To relax from the incredible year and challenges I overcame and to re-focus on my future. I don’t know exactly where my adventure is going to take me, but I do know that in 2 weeks I will now be sitting in a plane to take me to Dublin.
What I know now is that I will be staying in Ireland until the beginning of November. After this I have no plan. I have the feeling I could use some sunshine and warmth after spending 6 weeks in Ireland so if you have any recommendations of where to go after Ireland, let me know!